Recent Miscarriages

[EJ1008]

Diva - I am so sorry for your losses. I myself have had two losses in just over six months, so I know all too well the many feelings you are probably experiencing. You are not crazy. You are a grieving mother, and that is one of the most difficult emotions a mother can feel. (((Hugs)))

Like you, I found out my second one was gone just two days after a positive. So far, I've felt more distanced from that loss. I'm just waiting for the day when I really start grieving that one.

ducky - Your friend was so sweet to remember you on mother's day.

Torr - I think I will never completely be over my losses, and I think it's normal for you to feel the same.

AFM my 2nd m/c is completely over. The EDD for our first is next Sunday. Just waiting to move past that day.

[duckysleepover]

Diva-you are defanilty not crazy for thinking all those thoughts. i myself, have thought about it. the hurt is just too new to start thinking about ttc again. let yourself take a break for a while and let your body heal. its not easy, but know i'm sending prayers and lots of hugs your way.

[Diva26]

Thanks so much to both of you! We are going to wait at least three months before trying again. See if I can't get some weight off during that time too!

[Smilingangels]

Hello all im April. I recently had my 10th loss. in December i had our first daughter at 29w. She spend 6w in the NICU. With this pregnancy i just lost my progesterone and hcg didnt go up. It was at 9 when first checked and my hcg never doubled i had a US last week at 7w 4d and it showed a sac without a fetalpole. I have had PCOS since i was about 15.

Im so sorry for all of your losses.

[Diva26]

Smiling - That is so devastating. I'm so sorry for your losses. How is your baby that you had at 29 weeks? All okay? I wish you the very best and hope you are doing okay.

[sunflowergirls]

Hello-I am relatively new to this site. I've never posted before, but I've lurked. I'm sad that my first post is about miscarriage. I was hoping it would be about a thriving pregnancy.

I am in the midst of a first trimester miscarriage at 6 weeks. This is my first miscarriage, but I am no stranger to heartbreaking pregnancies. Two years ago, I had twins at 26 weeks. They are as healthy as can be today (their future was very uncertain when they were born), but their birth was traumatic. I was hoping a singleton pregnancy would be easier, but it ended at 6 weeks.

When I was first diagnosed with PCOS, I expected that the road to having a family would be difficult, but not like this. It turns out that I ovulate regularly. My worry is that I won't ever be able to carry a pregnancy to term. I don't know if that's related to PCOS or not.

Thanks for listening. I'm feeling really crappy about myself, especially because it seems like every single person I know is pregnant right now. I feel broken.

[Diva26]

Oh boy, I totally know how you feel! Especially with the everyone is pregnant right now thing. My sister and SIL are both pregnant with my parents first grandchildren. I wanted to be them. It definitely does hurt.

From my understanding, yes, PCOS does play a role in our miscarriages. I'm just not exactly sure what does it. My doctor wants to try progesterone shots when I get pregnant again. I know what you mean about knowing it would be hard to have children but not this hard. Just know that you are not alone. There are lots of us out there and you have a lot of support here!

[sunflowergirls]

Thank you, Diva26! I wish I didn't resent pregnant women so much! Why can't we all be as lucky as they are? I hate feeling that way. I want to be happy for my friends.

[Diva26]

I know what you mean! And there is a part of us that is happy for them. I think that what it boils down to is that we want it so badly and it hurts to see them have what we want.

Hang in there. It will be okay. Know that there are others of us out there going through the same thing and we can all help each other! You are not alone!