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Old 02-07-2008, 01:46 PM   #11
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I love the new poem. Thanks for adding it!
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Old 11-11-2008, 12:17 PM   #12
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Thank you very much for posting these.
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Old 12-11-2008, 05:51 PM   #13
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I have never been pregnant nor lost a baby but I wanted to tell you how deeply your poems touched me. You have a beautiful, wonderful gift and we are all so lucky to be recipients of your talent. Your words are warm and comforting.

Thank you so much.
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Old 04-03-2009, 09:52 AM   #14
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Thought I would add this song to here. I heard this song today, it is used in 7th Heaven when "Lucy" was having a hard time getting over her miscarriage of twins. it really touched my heart and I wanted to share. (she wrote the song years ago when she lost a close friend, but I thought it was fitting for us ladies here)

Artist: Mitchell Beverley
Song: Angel
Album: Beverley Mitchell
Beverley Mitchell Sheet Music
Beverley Mitchell CDs


Have you ever met an angel
Whose smile is like the sun
Whose laugh is like a melody
That reaches everyone
Have you ever hugged an angel
Swept up in their embrace
And swear, there’s nothing
In this world that makes you feel that safe

Have you ever really loved an angel
Once you have, you’ll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel
Say goodbye, let ‘em fly
My angel
My best friend

Have you ever felt the strength of an angel
When you needed it the most
Lifted by those gentle wings
You know you’re not alone
Every now and then
I feel the peace inside
Wherever life may take me
I’m guided by that light

Have you ever really loved an angel
Once you have, you’ll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel
Say goodbye, let ‘em fly
My angel
My best friend

'Cause I have really loved an angel
(And I will never be the same again) How could I ever be the same
'Cause I have had to let go of my angel
Say goodbye (goodbye), let 'em fly
My angel
My best friend

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Old 04-03-2009, 08:22 PM   #15
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What a beautiful song! Thanks for sharing.
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Old 08-09-2009, 01:20 AM   #16
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it made me tear up as i flash back to the day i lost my miracle baby! even though it wasnt planned its tough....their is not a min that goes by i dont think about it....it consumes me....i am trying to move on....but how do i??
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Old 11-19-2009, 06:29 AM   #17
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Default Heaven's Pennies-A collection of poems by Ndinkel
These are poems that I have written since the loss of our baby. I was asked to put them all together so that they could be made a sticky that way they would all be together and easier to find.
We lost Jaden due to an blighten ovum pregnancy. Before each poem I have written a little bit about the inspiration behind them. I hope that you enjoy them and that my words may help you to understand that you are not alone.


This first poem "My Baby" was written after we found out the baby was gone but before I had my D&C. The night that I wrote this my DH kissed my tummy and told our baby goodbye. This was the first poem I had written in a couple of years. This is the only poem that I wrote specifically for Jaden.

My Baby
By: Ndinkel

My precious little baby
I held you inside
I longed to protect you
Please know mommy tried
I wanted to keep you
On Earth, here with me
But GOD took you to Heaven
Where now an Angel you'll be
Though my body is aching
And my heart can do nothing but cry
I know GOD has his plan
So I won't question why
He gave you your wings
Just as he gave you to me
My precious little baby
In my heart you will always be

This next poem, which seems to be a favorite, started out to be about a playground. I was trying to think of a way to comfort all of us so I decided to write a poem about a perfect playground in heaven. I even asked people to describe what they thought of when they thought about happy memories of their childhood. But while writing it I kept coming back to this wishing well in the middle of the playground. That is how Heaven's Pennies came to be.

Heaven's Pennies
By: Ndinkel

Upon a crowed street, in a store or in your car,
You may find a penny that has traveled very far.
At first glance you question, if you should stop or pass it by,
But what you will soon discover is a wish sent through the sky.

For this is no ordinary penny,
But a child's wish come true.
Because this very penny,
Was meant for only you.

You see, in Heaven there's a playground,
Where all the children play,
They laugh and sing and dance,
And everything's okay.

In this little playground,
In the middle of it all,
Is a magic wishing well,
That stands just two feet tall.

The children all get pennies,
To send wishes through the sky,
So mom and dad will know,
They do not need to cry.

Because in Heaven there's a playground,
Where all the children say,
"We love you mom and dad,"
"We will meet again one day."

So when walking down the street or riding in your car,
If you should find a penny that has traveled very far,
You will no longer question, if you should stop or pass it by,
For you know this is your child's wish that traveled through the sky.

For this is no ordinary penny,
It is your child's wish come true.
Because this very penny,
Was meant for only you.

This next poem I wrote especially for JL, Jada and Mel who all were able to get pregnant again and then sadly there were three more angels in Heaven.

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

I know you are hurting and questioning why.
I had to leave early without saying good-bye.

But what you don't know and may never see.
Are the dreams that you had, were all felt by me.

While cuddled inside you, I took it all in,
Every goal, every smile, every wish from within.

I know you may worry, but know I'm okay.
I met my big brother, on my first day.

He welcomed me with hugs and we talked about you.
How we miss mommy's tummy and daddy's kisses too.

But we know here in Heaven, is where we should be.
It was always God's plan, for my brother and me.

One day our little sister you will cuddle inside.
And just like brother and me she will fill you with pride.

But she won't leave early, she won't say good-bye.
Your breath will be taken, as you hear her first cry.

Though you'll move on and cuddle more babies inside,
We'll always be the angels at your side.

Love,
Your Baby

This next poem was written after there was a week when it seemed like so many angel babies were made and I was trying to make sense of it all.

Dear Friend,

While I sat here reading
And tears began to fall,
I began to ponder
Why this happened to us all.

I still cannot understand,
Why our babies had to go.
But I have begun to wonder,
If the reason isn't so...

Did my angel go to heaven,
So I could be here for you?
Did your angel go to heaven,
So you would know my pain was true?

Is this never-ending circle
Of friends from far and wide,
Put together for a purpose
So we would not have to hide?

Are we here so that no one
Would ever feel they are alone?
Are we here so that our angels
Would never be "unknown?"

Am here to guide you to your pennies?
Are you here to help me through the day?
Are we here to give each other hope?
So that someday we can say...

We made it through this trial.
You were always there for me.
You're a friend sent from Heaven.
This was always meant to be.

I still don't have the answers.
I can't take the pain away.
But know that I am here,
To help you through the day.
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Old 12-15-2009, 02:29 PM   #18
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These poems are just so inspiring. Do you find it helpful to deal with your losses by writing? I have a diary and I do find that it helps me deal with the pain that often comes w PCOS
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Old 12-30-2009, 12:25 PM   #19
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I don't know if I would have been able to make it through the loss if it weren't for writing and for all of the ladies on this board. Having Leah and being pregnant again helps but the pain will never fully go away. I miss my baby every day and talk to him every night before I go to bed.
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Old 12-30-2009, 03:09 PM   #20
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Just beautiful.

I cried reading each of them.
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